I am craving space and order in my life... both physically and metaphorically. I'm having to clear space in bedrooms this week and it has made me aware of how much "stuff" I accumulate and store. I know I cannot be alone in this, so where do other artists/tutors store their "stuff"? I have framed work on the walls, framed work stacked up against the walls, other work rolled up under the beds or lurking in the back of wardrobes. There are dozens and dozens of sketchbooks, drawings in folios, boxes and files full of samples and endless folders full of notes, not to even mention all the fabrics, threads, paints, dyes etc... and I just want rid of it all.
But there lies the conundrum. To exhibit both in galleries or Open Studios at home, to sell my work, to teach... I need this "stuff". I cannot see how to achieve that space and order that I feel I'm desperate for right now. And this is making me question what I do and more pertinently, what I want to do in the future. Just a couple of days ago, I spoke about moving forward with my work and exploring new ideas but I now know I'm not ready to do that yet.
At some point I need to re-evaluate what I'm doing and make decisions but I can't do that at the moment. I do know I'm not ready to start making new work that will end up under the bed! And until I'm ready to make those decisions I need to stay within my comfort zone... which means spending time with my family, pottering in my garden, doing a little bit of knitting and crochet and of course, spending time in the kitchen.
Today, I made bagels... inspired by last night's episode of The Great British Bake Off. I might have thought I was in my comfort zone but the results were far from comfortable! Mishapen, badly risen and far too salty for my liking (although my team of testers are slowly demolishing them). Paul Hollywood would have sent me packing in no time!
But in the weeks to come I think there will be a lot more baking and family stuff here until I feel ready to step outside that comfort zone once more. I hope you'll stick with me?